Thursday, December 28, 2006
~ 12/28/2006 01:21:00 AM ~
so long nv post le. wanna post somthing random now. if this is the last post of the year, then i guess im entering the new year with a sad post.. lol -____-
well. it has happened time and time again. not once, not twice but so many times liao.
i have closed one eye so many times the eye like permenantly closed le. but wait!!
juz when i tot it would nv happen again... it hit me like a locomotive train. CHOOCHOO!! lol WTF!
yup. it has always happened at times where i least expected it and was most vulnerable. but everytime i got wounded, i picked my ass up, brush off the freaking dirt and continued walking again. duno what drives me on but there was juz always something inside me which absolutely refused 2 let me surrender. is this gd or bad? it has proved 2 be a rather wise decision but i will only noe the answer after the nxt 2-3 days passes. hope this passes quickly.
im not a gd actor. not so gd anw. i may have commited mistakes. but how abt u? only u noe how much u have SINNED. u decide 4 urself. im not gonna be so mean as 2 condemn u.
the blow this time seems 2 be the final nail in the coffin. if anything were 2 happen. u noe who u should blame. ur not silly. y do i say this?
everytime i got hit, there would be a superb excuse 4 it. as if u read it from a script of somthing. yeah. and i would go all jelly inside b4 standing up again. if u were 2 be the one in my shoes. i dare bet that you would have collapsed by the 1st / ( at most 2nd) blow. although it may have all been in the past, but i say this. ONCE AGAIN.
WHY DO U HAVE TO HIDE IT FROM ME??????????????????????????
im gonna slp now. i will decide by 2ml prob. its not gonna be pleasent, i gurantee. but it has 2 be done. i will not be taken as a fool again once more. thou should not forgive nor should i forget again. i wanna end this suffering. either kill me or let me survive and not let me fall once again.
its inevitable, i must do it. and i will do it this time.
how will it end. u should decide our fate. .. ..
LOL!! WTF I TOKING. MUAHAHAHA. THIS IS NOT WRITTEN BY ME!
